Last week was, I can honestly, the best of my life. I spent it a thousand miles away from here, with someone who means the world to me and who isn't present face to face in my life half as much as I want her to be... but we should be used to living that way by now, having never really known otherwise. And yes, maybe Cora is a long way away geographically and six years older than me, but why does nobody understand that that doesn't matter? Friendship isn't something we can choose to acquire and build, no matter how hard we try; it's not something that changes throughout the ups and downs of life; it's not something that fades, breaks, dies... not real friendship. Real friends would do anything for each other. Real friendship is made stronger where weaker bonds snap.
People may come into our lives, stepping in and out through that door like the hinges are far too well oiled, but that doesn't make them matter. Sometimes we're friends with people because they're there, because they're the same age, in the same classes, because our parents are friends... when you find a friend like I found Cora, when coincidence after coincidence leads you to one another, it can only be destiny for you to meet. And yes, that sounds like a load of utter bollocks, but I know we've both always had an interest in each other's respective country, and certainly speaking for myself, Denmark seems to have popped up quite frequently throughout my life even before I met Cora. Even language wise; Cora's freakishly talented at English and I've fallen in love with Danish, even though it's not the prettiest or easiest of languages. It definitely has a certain charm. Anyway, with that and then meeting Cora, and the ease and speed with which our friendship began and formed, it's like she and I were always meant to meet... which is pretty damn awesome.
I suppose there are benefits to building a friendship this way; some friendships I have would peter out if I were no longer seeing that friend every day and if we only spoke on the Internet, but not this one. Having formed it this way and relying on a connection to the web in order to maintain it is undoubtedly a pain in the arse, but it means that that will never be a problem for us. Although I daresay no matter what our circumstances, we'd still have met, because when it's going to happen it will happen. And meeting her was definitely meant to happen. I just hope that neither of us are ever too busy to talk or that Cora never grows out of me, because without her my life would never be complete ever again. There would always be a hole where she should be because she knows me and understands me completely; there's nobody else to whom I can tell everything and without her I wouldn't be the person I am today.
Eventually you learn that sometimes it hurts when people drift out of your life, sometimes it doesn't, sometimes you want it, and some people just never leave. Within five minutes of meeting Cora I knew she would be one of the latter. Some people you just can't have life without.
I've never been as happy as I am when I'm with her, but never as depressed as when I have to leave. I guess the trouble with happiness is that what goes up must come down - life can't keep us floating on air forever and that sucks. But I suppose I'm lucky, because a lot of people will never know friendship like this, and I can't imagine my life without it. I'm so lucky to know you, Cora, and thank you for being you.
Molly x
